Do you want to be healed?

This show…  “The Chosen” is churning up things for me that no amount of continued avoidance can settle.  I discovered The Chosen while watching an interview between Dallas Jenkins, the director, and Glenn Beck.   Honestly, I didn’t finish watching the interview because I was immediately drawn to seek out the show.  By the time I found it Season 1 was complete and Season 2 was being released. I began watching… binge watching Jesus and this depiction of Him and his disciples.  Real people who lived real lives memorialized in the Bible but brought to life in this episodic show … The Chosen.

I am not understating things when I say that this show has changed me in a profound way.  My searching for a deeper relationship with God has intensified and my closeness to God is bringing me peace in many areas of my life where peace has been eluding me.  The latest episode – Season 2, Episode 4 entitled “The Perfect Opportunity” aired this past Tuesday.  I was excited to see what I would learn and who I would become more intimately familiar with.  In Dallas Jenkins’ introduction to the show he said that this was their biggest and so I expected the same wow factor that all the previous episodes delivered.  At first after watching I wasn’t sure of the wow factor … but then.  But then I began thinking, which is always a bit dangerous for me, and I realized that God was talking directly to me.  Let me explain.  This episode focuses on a paralyzed man… here let me share the scripture from John 5:1-6.

After this there was a feast of the Jews, and Jesus went up to Jerusalem.  Now there is in Jerusalem by the Sheep Gate a pool, in Aramaic called Bethesda, which has five roof colonnades.  In these lay a multitude of invalids-blind, lame, and paralyzed.  One man was there who had been an invalid for thirty-eight years.  When Jesus saw him lying there and knew that he had already been there a long time, he said to him, “Do you want to be healed?”  John 5:1-6

Those words “do you want to be healed” were almost like a slap in the face or a bucket of cold water over the head.  Suffice to say those words hit me hard and opened my eyes to the fact that I have been struggling with the very same immobilizing behavior and thoughts as far back as I can recall.  My various paralyzing behaviors have kept me stuck.  Stuck at the side of the pool and circling back around year-after-year.  Don’t get me wrong, I have made much progress over the years and am a better person than I used to be.  I am a person now with more faith, wisdom and better judgment, but in several areas of my life I have been stuck.

My spring garden… seeds have been planted!

So this question, “Do you want to be healed?” is profound and begs an answer.  The answer is, of course, a resounding, “YES!”  Yes, I do want to be healed.  The hard part is that I know this “Yes” requires something from me.  Something up to now I have been unwilling – not unable – to do.  I think sometimes we keep ourselves stuck because while it is not a good or perfect place, it is familiar and seems safer that venturing into the unknown.  I know for myself that one specific behavior – overeating – keeps me immobilized, insecure and in self-imposed isolation.  I know… really know that God has plans for each of our lives.  Like the seeds planted in my spring garden we have this potential to become transformed and bloom into brilliant arrays!  I believe it and yet… what am going to do about it?  Do I want to be healed? 

So, Dallas Jenkins was right… Episode 4 of Season 2 was their biggest so far and I look forward to more and while I wait for each episode I have pulled out my Bible and begun digging deep, I’m trying now to eat healthy so maybe I can bloom into a grand array, I’m listening for God’s counsel and just trying to be a better Christian… The seeds have indeed been planted.