Sometimes in life we’re faced with hard decisions. Actually, life is filled with decisions that challenge us.  This “radical move” that we’re preparing for is just one of those tough choices.  I didn’t realize how difficult this planned move would be, but as I watch the kitchen renovation unfold my home becomes more endearing to me and my heart strings are being tugged.

Somewhere deep down I know that a BIG change is the only thing that will promote the personal, spiritual and economic growth that has been held back here for sometime.   Nonetheless that knowledge doesn’t appease the tugging and pulling that is taking place inside my head and heart.   My logical thinking brain tells me that what we have here is a nice, private place filled with solitude and nothing will change for us if we stay.   It’s my conviction and desire for a life change that is fueling this impending move.

This decision is one of the hardest conscious decisions I’ll ever make.  Purposely letting go of something you love is hard.  My usual approach is to wait and see what happens, watching while others make decisions that impact my life.  Waiting and being the victim or beneficiary of the decisions of others is an  approach that can work at times.   But I’m beginning to see that there is much greater benefit to the proactive approach.

I don’t know for sure where this path will lead me, but staying and accepting the status quo feels wrong.  I know there’s so much more out there.   More of what I’m not sure, but what I’m hoping for is more time to live a life authentic to my creative nature,  more interaction with others and, of course, more opportunity for prosperity.

There is a price for all the decisions we make.   There’s risk involved and there is no guarantee of a desired outcome.  What I do know is that I’m prepared to do whatever it takes to make this hard decision into a positive experience, while accepting whatever detours are thrown into my path and doing my part so God’s plan can unfold.

I have faith that somehow this letting go will be the right decision and I’ll see that truth when my path has been trod and I look back over my travels.  For now though it’s one small step at a time and no looking back.

Tags: Faith, God, Moving

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