Archive for August, 2009
Sunday, August 30th, 2009
 "Water Skier at Eagle Bay," Here is the first value and watercolor sketch from my trip.
My mind is full to overflowing from the last few days spent in the Adirondack Mountains in Upstate New York with my friend, Anne. I’d packed everything, but the kitchen sink (just in case) - shorts, pants, short sleeve, long sleeve, suit, sandals, shampoo, toothpaste, towels, pillows, powder, paints, paper, palette, brushes, books, apples, oatmeal, raisins, juice and coffee, of course.
I brought no makeup, no stockings, no perfume, no junk, no iron, no tension, no worry and no hassles. There would be no need for those things in this place.
As I drove into the Adirondacks I could feel the stress being shed like an old skin and when I caught my first glimpse of the mountains as they peeked out from behind the trees I could feel nature take me into her arms - likened to a deep and refreshing inhale then exhale.
I followed winding roads, rising and falling into the mountains as I drove north. With the rising of the road came an excitement about what majestic view would be revealed as I reached the peak. The three hour drive, with Van Morrison serenading me, seemed to fly by. Van and I sang as I drove, my voice loud and slightly off key. As we sang his joyful, “Bright Side of the Road,” then his sentimental “Have I Told You Lately,” followed up with his questioning “Brown Eyed Girl,” feelings of joy and a sense of freedom began to overtake me.
Arriving at Eagle Bay around a quarter past twelve, Anne greeted me with a true friend’s welcome and began helping to get things unloaded from my car and settled into the room. Our spot for the next couple of days was situated right on the lake. I mean literally, step out the front door onto a short deck and then directly into the wet, sandy shore of Fourth Lake. The beach was covered with tracks from friendly ducks looking for a treat and footprints of other vacationers long home from their time at the lake.
As I’d anticipated, the lapping waves could be heard easily from our room, the repetition of sound, soothing and meditative. A small table would be split 50/50 with Anne’s painting setup on one side, mine on the other, a tall floor lamp would illuminate the maple table where art would be created over the next couple of days.
The air had begun to cool, as if nature had switched off summer and switched on autumn overnight. Nonetheless, a swim in the lake was to be one of the first items on the agenda. After a quick lunch of PB&J with a steaming cup of coffee, I suited up and grabbed my towel. The air temperature, in the high 60’s maybe low 70’s, caused me to momentarily question my decision to take a dip, but with few opportunities these days to swim I decided, “What the heck!”
Taking the slow torturous route into the water, I inched my way into the cool, clear lake. First, wading in up to my knees, then waist and finally up to my shoulders all the while kicking my legs and waving my arms through the water, back and forth, in an attempt to stay warm. Truthfully, once in the water, it was refreshing with a certain freedom in the floating and kicking, feeling nearly weightless. Especially refreshing once out of the water and wrapped in a large, warm towel.
Afterward Anne and I sat on the deck facing the water and immediately began to sketch. Rare is there an opportunity for me to sketch en plein air and as intimidating as it may have felt, I could not let this opportunity go by. We sketched and talked, non-stop, making plans for the next few days. I snapped a few pics as the afternoon began to slip away and the light began to change.
It was decided we’d venture into a little town nearby, Inlet, to check out the local gift shops, pick up a bar of soap I’d forgotten, get pizza for dinner at the local pizzeria and then head around the lake in search of friendly, hungry deer that seem unafraid of humans with crackers in hand.
Our evening was finished with painting. Painting late into the night. As we sat in the quiet Anne heard a weighted walker on the deck and decided it might be best to close the door. As she approached the open door with only a screen of protection, she realized that a large black bear was our late night visitor, right on the deck, just outside our door. Anne turned to me and quietly yelled in alarm, “It’s a BEAR!” We hurriedly closed the door, locking it (at my suggestion) just in case he was an intelligent and determined bear who thought we might have a Snickers or two inside. We turned out the lights while peering out the window to try and catch another glance at our hairy visitor. Nothing could be seen, but knowing that nature was lurking just outside got the adrenalin pumping and gave a renewed alertness to continue painting even later into the night.
When no more energy could be summoned, lights were snuffed out and heads placed on pillows. Steady breathing and light snoring was all that could be heard in our room at Fourth Lake.
This, my first day and night in the Adirondacks. Breathe in. . . breathe out. .
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Thursday, August 27th, 2009
I’m headed to the Adirondacks for a couple of days with my good friend, Anne. Anne has rented a little cottage at Eagle Bay. It’s a beautiful spot with the lake right out your front door. I can hear the waves lapping on the shore already. There’s always a few friendly ducks nearby looking for a handout. The weather forecast is already sounding like fall so I’d better add more socks and another sweater.
We plan to check out the 28th Annual Adirondacks National Exhibition of American Watercolors at the Old Forge Arts center and intend to do a little painting ourselves. I missed the show last year, but the work I saw in 2007 was superb and certain images are still with me to this day. Like any other passion, you’ve got to prime the pump in order to get things flowing so I’m hopeful these next few days will do just that. I’ll meet you back here in a few days!
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Wednesday, August 26th, 2009
The weather was perfect, as forecast, for Art in the Park yesterday in Saratoga Springs, New York. I’d implemented my new plan to “downscale” my takings and brought only a few of my newest, best paintings and drawings. Tom came along for the fun and we decided to bring our tent, but when we found my spot was under a large shade tree the tent was left unerected.
We arrived around 8ish, unloaded, began setup, hanging, labeling and readying for all the anticipated sales and accolades. I’d brought a small thermos of coffee and once things were “just so” Tom and I sat with a fresh cup to enjoy - hot and savory with a sprinkle of cinnamon. Nice. . .
As the day began it appeared to be a typical Tuesday crowd - lots of mothers with children lined up waiting their turn on the carousel, husbands with wives, girl friends in a group, dog walkers and young hipsters - just a variety of browsers. Tom and I sat, watched and waited. It soon became apparent that my artwork was unnecessary and discretionary.
In an economic climate such as the one we are experiencing these days, artwork is pure luxury. I know how it feels to browse without any intention of purchasing and I saw much of that yesterday. It would be easy for self-doubt to begin to infiltrate my enthusiasm, but I’ve decided to take some positive moments from the day rather than focus on the disappointment.
Yesterday was a chance visited with some old friends, absorb inspiration and read. Regardless of any amount of positive thinking, I was exhausted when Tom and I arrived at home. Exhausted and hungry. I made BLTs for dinner and ate a few too many potato chips. Next a long soak in the tub to wash away the day. Washing the disappointment down the drain, knowing that after a good nights sleep I’d be ready to tackle the dream again with a renewed enthusiasm.
I know that I’ll always paint, I can’t imagine my life without it. The showing and selling is a funny thing. Is it necessary to creativity? I’m not sure. I’ve been painting for years with the knowledge that eventually I’ll be going to a show of some kind or other.
So while yesterday I felt discretionary and unnecessary, that was one day. Most days my art feels very necessary and my discretion tells me to paint on. One day the economic light will return, but I paint on not for the showing, but for the peace it brings to me on the inside.
[Side Note: Tom was a trooper and voiced a minimal amount of complaining and expressions of misery. Thanks!]
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Monday, August 24th, 2009
 Pink Flamingos and Echinacea Coneflower
At the end of the day I can always rely on my Pink Flamingos to make me smile. Oh how they love to dance their way through the Echinacea Coneflowers in summer.
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Monday, August 24th, 2009
I’ve got the car all loaded and am ready for Saratoga Art in the Park scheduled for tomorrow from 10:00 a.m. to 6:00 p.m. The weather forecast promises a beautiful day and I’m excited to be going to Saratoga again this summer.
The Saratoga Meet is in full swing too and while the Thoroughbreds are in town the level of excitement is heightened, bringing a diverse and interesting crowd to the park. Saratoga Springs is a lovely town with great shops, superb eateries and loads of charm. Remember, Tuesday is a “dark” day at the track so you might want to add taking a stroll through the park to your agenda. You’re sure to enjoy a heaping helping of visual stimulation with over 70 artists participating in tomorrow’s show.
If you do happen to find yourself in the park tomorrow, be sure to stop by and say, “Hey.”
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Sunday, August 23rd, 2009
 Farm Livin, Watercolor, Mini 4.5"x3.5"
I’ve been out of sync with my art over the last few of weeks. One of the problems with being a part-time artist is life happens and you still need to participate. It might be frowned upon if you should blow off some important function by saying, “Sorry. . . gotta paint.”
“Blah Blah is having a blah for blah.”
“Sorry, gotta paint.”
“I heard blah blahed and the blah is on blah.”
“Sorry, gotta paint.”
See what I mean.
I say all this as a way of excusing my lack of art related posts recently. Life has been happening and I needed to participate in other things. As life was happening and I was participating, I could feel myself becoming unglued in the process. A little more edgy, more out of balance and just plain grouchy at times.
Then last Friday night I sat down briefly at my art desk and began my painting process by spraying my paints with water. I use Cheap Joe’s Original Palette and tube watercolor paints. I find the benefit to using watercolor, in general, and tube paints in particular, is that you squeeze the paint into your palette (as much or as little as you like), paint with great abandon, let them dry and then re-wet them over and over again as needed. This makes watercolor a preferred medium to me for its convenience, lack of waste and ease of cleanup. So for someone on the go, participating in life and still wanting to paint, watercolor is the nuts. While I do a little oil painting, watercolor seems to fit better into my lifestyle right now.
Back to Friday. As I sat at my art desk spraying my paints, a certain peace and excitement began to overcome me. I was surprised how just the initial act of preparing to paint brought me closer to an internal balance. I realized in that moment just how important, how essential, my creativity has become. Regular creativity, not just an occasional dabble here and there, is vital to my well-being.
I approached getting restarted a bit tentatively as I browsed through my photo reference material, ultimately selecting a landscape with an old farmhouse and a grazing horse (seen above). I once resided in a rental on this property, so I know it well. What’s more the open countryside is something I always feel connected to and horses are my favorite animal, having once owned a horse of my own some years ago. In my opinion, it doesn’t get much better than that - open space, the history of an old farmhouse with a majestic horse grazing in a leisurely way out back. When I paint a scene like this one (whether I’ve lived there or not), I’m there, living in the house or standing at the fence feeling a fresh breeze brush across my face while trying to lure the horse to the fence with carrot or two. It’s powerful, inspiring and motivating.
So, I’m happy to report that I’ve reacquainted myself with an old friend, My Art, while painting this landscape. My Art understands me, offers no criticism, only validation and provides an inner peace I can find in few other places. When my life is turmoil I’m always better off if I run toward My Art instead of away, as I once did. I need to remember never to let weeks go by without connecting with My Art.
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Wednesday, August 19th, 2009
 Happy Birthday! That's Jonathan on the left and Michael on the right. . . a mother knows.
To say this day, August 19th, is a special day is an understatement of the greatest magnitude. This is a day that literally changed every minute of the rest of my life. Today is the day my sons were born - twin sons, Jonathan and Michael. Today, August 19th, is our Birthday.
I remember the day so very well. It all began months before, but I won’t share with you those details - TMI. What I will do is start my narrative on the Monday night before their birth, August 16, 1976.
I was nearly nine months along (they didn’t measure your pregnancy in weeks back then) and I’d just stopped working the Friday before. I’d been feeling a little off all day long attributing it to the weather being intolerable with heat and humidity that is common to Upstate New York in August. I reluctantly called the doctor not wanting to inconvenience him in the evening, but knowing that I should. “Go to the hospital” to get things checked out was his directive.
My memory of that night is forever ingrained in my mind’s eye. I can see myself walking through the long hospital hallway, waddling is more like it, large with baby. One baby, or so I thought. Soon-to-be dad was ten paces ahead, out of sheer nervousness I suspect. “Wait up,” I called out inside my head.
While I lay on the examining table the nurse checked the baby’s heartbeat and then turned to me questioningly with a remark about twins. “No,” I replied, “My doctor said I was the wrong shape for twins.” She left the room without any real response and shortly thereafter I was wheeled to another part of the hospital for an ultrasound (back then a new and not routinely used technology).
I recall being wheeled down hallway after hallway with ceilings looking all the same, to an elevator and into a half lit room where the procedure was performed painlessly. A short time later I recall being told, “Twins! You’re having twins.” Surprised would be another gross understatement. The gender of my two babies was still a mystery, but there were two. I was about to be the mother of twins.
These two babies would be born by cesarean section, it was decided. With no room in the womb the normal rotation and positioning never occurred so the situation demanded a cesarean and Thursday, August 19th would be the day, in spite of my original September 1 due date. I recall being admitted into the hospital and then the waiting, choosing two more baby names - one for a girl and one for a boy - and then more waiting.
 Michael
Twins were a relatively rare occurrence back then and I recall a crowd gathered in the operating room to witness the event. As I lay semi-awake, voices could be heard, voices calling out with excitement and joy, “IT’S A BOY!” . . . and then, “IT’S ANOTHER BOY!” My life forever changed in that moment. August 19, 1976 at 3:29 and 3:30 p.m., 6 lb. 3 oz, 6 lb. 6. oz. How beautiful a sight they were.
That’s how it all started, our lives together. To say time goes by quickly and they grow up too soon is yet another gross understatement. Jonathan and Michael grew from shy toddlers (a phase that would be a short one) into confident and adventurous boys. They have been friends from the start and to this day their bond is tight.
 Jonathan
I can claim no real credit for the loving and successful young men they are today. JonBoy and Mikey are a gift to me from God and I did my best not to screw up his creation. Mothers always seem to carry a cartload full of regrets and I am no different. But woulda, coulda, shouldas carry no weight here because they are great human beings in spite of my mothering.
They are my life’s treasure, my love, my kind and generous sons. A gift I did not deserve, but one I am grateful for always. . . immensely grateful. They have enriched my life beyond measure and saved me from myself with their birth. . .
I cannot imagine who I would have become without them.
 And now... Jonathan on the left and Michael on the right...a mother knows. I just need to ask, where does the time go?
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Monday, August 17th, 2009
 Here is one of Grandma's cherished letters with her left slanting handwriting, so distinctive, and that's Grandma and Grandpa in serious portrait pose.
I sat down at the computer tonight to write. About what? I wasn’t sure. So as usual I began to confess some personal shortcoming or other, but still I just couldn’t get anything going.
Type, backspace, type, delete, type, cut, paste, type, delete, Delete, DELETE. In a final act of frustration I shut the computer down.
That’s when I got an idea. . . get a pencil and a piece of paper. Write the old fashioned way, just to see what happens. So I pulled out my new favorite writing pencil and a funky composition notebook I’d bought recently just for this purpose. Writing, pure pencil in hand to paper. I enjoy the feel of a fine pencil sliding across paper, writing cursive with big loops on my Y’s and G’s. I find the process of putting marks on paper enjoyable and just plain fun.
I remember when I was a kid my Grandmother Mahoney would write us letters for our Birthday, Christmas or just to chat. Her letters were chocked full of details about their goings on, several pages usually, front, back and rounding the edges, always closing with one of her favorite Bible verses. Bible verses I still find comforting to this day. I treasured her letters, her hand could seen in the distinctive writing style and with those letters came a little piece of Grandma.
As I read through the letter you see here, she says she misses us and wishes we could live closer to one another. I read that today through knowing eyes as I feel the same with my own children and single grandchild living miles and miles away. I can feel her truth in those words. Words I likely dismissed as idle chatter back then. I know better now.
I think how sad that these days letter writing is the exception, having been largely replaced by a telephone call or an email. Those letters of old would become keepsakes, tucked into a box to be read and reread years later (as I’m doing now). These days email is a great way to stay in touch, but can never replace a personal note, written on a fine piece of paper.
I’m not suggesting we eliminate computers and email or the telephone. They have enabled us to really stay connected to each other’s lives. What I am saying is every now and then a personal note, written in hand then sent off to someone you love in an envelope with a stamp is a great gift to the receiver. I know I enjoy finding a letter in my mailbox every now and then. I particularly enjoy looking through my keepsake box and finding these handwritten treasures. Nothing really can replace that.
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Saturday, August 15th, 2009
 Here's My "Hippie Tribute" -The painting in the background was done by my son, Jonathan, who is a Dead and Phish fan. The tie dye is compliments of my radical, hippie husband, Tom. The love beads and hand carved peace sign were a garage sale find! Groovy!
I’m hearing that today is the 40th anniversary of the Woodstock Festival. You remember… the music festival held at Max Yasgur’s 600-acre dairy farm in the town of Bethel, New York. The Yasgur farm is actually 43 miles southwest of the town of Woodstock so I’m a little confused as to why the festival has been called Woodstock all these years. Anyway… The festival included 32 musical performances by the likes of Richie Havens, the Grateful Dead, Santana, Janis Joplin, Jimi Hendrix, The Band and many many more talented musicians. The festival went on for three days with intermittent rain adding to the musical chaos and celebration.
All the hoopla has got me thinking (oh no), “Where was I in 1969, what the heck was I doing?” And then a second question comes to mind, “Why was Woodstock not so much as a glimmer in my memory?”
Looking back I realize that I was a mere 14 years old in 1969. My reality was far removed from the Woodstock scene. My family and I had been living in Huntsville, Alabama since 1962 and my life was more like a Leave It To Beaver episode. No drugs, no marijuana, no radical thinking, no love beads or protesting. Our most radical behavior was watching Laugh In. We were Mayberry RFD and Red Skelton and in the summer of 1969 we were preparing for our move from Huntsville to Upstate New York, where we still live today.
I don’t mean to imply that if we weren’t moving that I would have Woodstock memories. I would not and have tried to figure out why. I suppose one reason might be that attending such a festival was never on my radar. There was no money in our budget for such extravagant expenditures and an event like Woodstock would never have been approved by the family governing body (my parents).
Music has always been a priority in our lives, but vinyl on the turntable was our way to enjoy it. Live concerts were a rarity. Add to that the fact that the drug culture was not my reality and frankly scared the heck out of me. I never even considered trying drugs or smoking pot. I was around a few that did, but I would never partake myself. I’m way too much of a control freak.
I don’t regret my sheltered upbringing. I’m grateful to my parents for protecting us from life’s harsh realities as long as possible. I believe their protection and our insulated existence has made me an optimistic and responsible person. The vinyl on our record player included all kinds of music and has made me musically open minded and that includes the music performed at Woodstock.
I don’t feel I missed out by not being at Woodstock. Truthfully the mud would have driven me to distraction. Today you would not consider me an old hippie and the drugs I take these days are for high blood pressure and cholesterol, but I’m happy to sing a new song everyday. Maybe today I’ll choose a song from the Woodstock play list. How about Oh Happy Day performed by Joan Baez.
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Yes, Sometimes It Happens
Friday, August 21st, 2009One day you’re a diamond and then you’re a stone. Sometimes you’re the windshield, sometimes you’re the bug. Sometimes you’re strolling through Downtown Albany, wearing your crisp, new, white jacket with over-sized black buttons and a bird craps on your lapel.
It’s always risky for me to wear white. I’m very aware of that fact. Truth is I’m prone to dripping, dropping and drooling so avoiding light colored shirts, sweaters and tees is a must most of the time. Since I’d successfully worn a white sweater a few weeks ago (in spite lunching out with my co-workers), caution got thrown to the wind.
So on Wednesday morning when my new white jacket with the big black buttons called out from the closet, “Pick me,” I just couldn’t resist. The new me could handle the responsibility required to wear white. I recall taking great pains to stay pressed and clean as I readied for work. My strategy for the rest of the day, refrain from having coffee while in the car, pay special attention when drinking my cup of Yemen Mocha Java at the office and act like a lady (not to imply that I don’t act like a lady most days). As the day progressed, the courage to wear white enveloped me.
I was reveling in my whiteness as I left the office to pick up my new favorite salad at my new favorite deli. With salad in hand, I stopped briefly to window shop on the way back to the office. As I was eyeing up a little green teapot I thought would be perfect for a friend (the new me thinking already about Christmas), I was assaulted, “Plop!” At first I thought it was a large droplet of water and since I was wearing my hair braided with the long braided tail slung stylishly over my left shoulder I didn’t readily realize a pigeon pooped on my lapel. When I scooted my hair out of the way I found a large, greenish-brown, slimy, oozing blob on my new white jacket.
What had I done to deserve this humiliation?! I was innocently thinking of someone else, “Why Me?!” Honestly, the pigeon poop was so large and hit so hard that I thought I might have to see a doctor for a dislocated shoulder.
Okay I know I’m overacting and exaggerating just a bit, acting as if this malicious pigeon just had it in for me, stalking me as I walked innocently from my office building, getting me in his slights and then waiting for the perfect moment. “PLOP!” “HA!”
I know. . . I know. . . sometimes shit just happens in life. Get over it.
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