Archive for July, 2009

Like a Child – Paint with Great Abandon and Joy

Friday, July 31st, 2009
My Tree, Watercolor, Image Size 5"x5.5"

My Tree, Watercolor, Image Size 5"x5.5"

I’ve been in a creative slump for the past couple of weeks.   I know that creativity is like a stream that ebbs and flows along with seasons of abundance and want. When my season of want is at hand - as it is now - I’m left feeling unsettled and on edge.  My gut tells me something significant is missing from my life and I don’t move through each day with the level of optimism I try to maintain.

I’ve gone through the doldrums before and know that it will pass, but in order to move things along and get past this funk more quickly I’ll need to take some kind of action.  I’ve developed a few strategies over the last few years that seem to work for me.  The most important strategy is acknowledging that this kind of melancholy is a part of life and the next step is to do something, anything.   Don’t just passively wait for the fog to lift.

I’ve found that forcing myself into the art room, if only to rearrange and organize, will ultimately lead to a restart.  There are times I’ll just sit there and waste paper.  Allowing yourself that freedom, to play and  paint like a child, will release your creative spirit.

I know that creativity is essential to my mental health and happiness.  If a creative slump is allowed to go unchecked, it can consume many days and weeks.  I also know that I’m in the driver’s seat when it comes to how I handle these down times.

So tonight as I sat in the midst of my favorite paper, paint, brushes and books, I decided to paint something simple.  The idea came as I scanned my desktop and noticed a simple doodle on a post-it-note, likely done while I was on the phone.   It was a tree, just a tree.   Keeping things simple is always a good idea, but this simple tree is just the bridge that I needed tonight to get back my creative flow.

So here it is, my tree, painted great abandon using any colors that came to mind!  This could be the beginning of another season of abundance.  I sure hope so.

Nancy’s Wildflowers

Wednesday, July 29th, 2009
Nancy's Wildflowers, Watercolor, 8.75"x5"

Nancy's Wildflowers No. 1, Watercolor Sketch

Tom and I went to Vermont in late June to visit Jonathan and Calico.  We were lucky enough to walk some lovely fields where wildflowers were in full bloom.  I snapped quite a few pics that day and this is the first watercolor sketch to come from that inspiring day.

The clouds began to roll in over the mountains and the colorful wildflowers sprinkled throughout the fields became intensified.  I learned a lot doing this first draft, using masking fluid to “save the whites” for the Daisies and Lupine.  By doing so I was able to do smooth and interesting washes in the foreground fields, applying several layers before removing the masking fluid.

I’ve been in a bit of a creative slump these past couple of weeks and I suspect doing a few paintings inspired by that day will be just the thing to get me painting again.

Maybe I Should be a Rock Star

Wednesday, July 29th, 2009

I realized today that I need to get back to my promised schedule of posting Monday, Wednesday and Friday.   Today is Wednesday.   Oh no.  What profound and interesting thing can I possibly write about?!

As I chatted on the telephone with my son, Jonathan, tonight, we were discussing my blog and my lack of regular posting.  That’s when I realized my life is boring.  What do I really have to say?  To write about?   Yee Gads!  My day-to-day routine would make one lousy reality TV show unless it’s being advertised as a remedy for insomnia.  As I sit here thinking about my day. . .  yawn. . . yawn. . . I nearly nod off myself and it’s my life!

Here, let me show you what I mean.

My alarm goes off around 6:30 a.m. and is set to our local country music station.  So some days I wake up with Toby Keith.   Hmmm. . . . so far not as boring as I thought.  I always roll over and press the snooze button, getting out of bed only after my bladder alarm can’t be snoozed any longer.

Then it’s a stumble to the kitchen and a beeline for the coffee pot (not set up the night before - of course).   Once the coffee is brewing, I might stretch my achy muscles, let the dog out/in and then shuffle off to the bathroom.  See what I mean - boring - and it doesn’t improve much from there.

I’m afraid I must confess that my life may be boring because of the choices I’ve made or not made.  What’s more, I realize that the only way to spice things up is to do something different, something radical. But what?

I suppose it’s too late for me to become a rock star. . . or a stripper. . . or some talentless heiress who always makes tabloid headlines.

Maybe I could be an artist?   Yeah!  And then I could do a little writing about art and stuff.  Yeah!   And how about setting up a blog and posting my writing and art  on the Internet!   Yeah!  And then maybe I can make friends all around the world.   Sounds radical!  Maybe I should do that.  Yeah. . . . that’s what I’ll do.

Cool!  My life feels a little less boring already!

It’s Over. . .

Tuesday, July 28th, 2009
Walkway

My Walkway and My Feet

My vacation week is over and I’ve been back to work for two whole days now. The transition has been tough, there’s no doubt it.  One day I was sleeping till my body said it was time to start the day and the next I’m being rudely awakened before my sleep-o-meter registered “full.”  All-in-all my vacation week was good though, really good.

I’m proud to report my walkway - the one thing on my “to-do” list - is mostly complete.  With the exception of one little transition section where I’ll need to make a couple of irregular shaped blocks, it’s done.  While it’s not perfect, I’m pleased.  Mixing the store-bought blocks and with the ones we made ourselves created a bit of a problem in that the homemade blocks weren’t exactly square.  So I improvised and it all worked out.

That’s life, nothing is perfectly square and there’s a lot of improvisation required.  Our lives aren’t scripted movies to be played out in a certain order with neat transitions.  Life (like my walkway) is an improvised adventure with decisions to be made and directions to change.  The important thing is to take the plunge and do your best while letting go of any expectation of perfection.   Your best is the goal.

I find that if I hold my expectations so high I can’t reach the starting gate and then all I become is a spectator.  There needs to be an allowance to try, fail and try again.  I, for one, would rather be a player over a spectator any day.

And then there will be times when we are called upon to be only a spectator and that role too should be embraced with joy, expectation and improvisation.  Throughout our lives we’ll play many roles.  Sometimes we’ll be a leaner and sometimes we’ll need to be leaned on, sometimes we’ll motivate and sometimes we’ll need to be motivated, sometimes a player and sometimes a spectator.  Each experience should be embraced with gusto.

At first I wasn’t going to share this walkway pic with you because of the flaws, but now I realize it’s important to share it because it’s the imperfections that make it interesting.   So as I stand back to admire my walkway I feel satisfied.  I’m a player!

The End

The End

Photo Album

Saturday, July 25th, 2009

DaDa and Grace

DaDa and Grace

Here’s what I’m talking about.  There’s nothing like spending time with family and with the new digital cameras we can snap pics with great abandon!  What a wonderful thing.  Click, click, click!  I’m still trying to figure out my new camera and took quite a few pics using the wrong setting so the images ended up being a bit grainy.

Mama and the Pink Flamingo Kid!  What cute outfit!  Thanks Mama!

Mama and the Pink Flamingo Kid! What cute outfit! Thanks Mama!

Here’s Mama (Kathy) and Grace.  Kathy is patiently waiting for Grace to say Mama.  She did say it once yesterday!  It’s surprising when they utter words that are not just baby chatter and then all of a sudden you realize they just said something!

A New Friendship Begins!

A New Friendship Begins!

Grace and Penny became fast friends.  Grace kept Penny on the move most of the day.  Everyone slept well last night.  Here’s what you get when you force a photo shoot with babies and animals!  Stay!  Smile!  Now!

Car Trouble

Saturday, July 25th, 2009

Still on vacation, it was Wednesday, I had my whole day planned. Out of bed at 8:30 am or so, coffee, cereal and out to pick up provisions for Michael, Kathy and Grace’s visit. As I turned left out of our driveway I heard a click or maybe a crunch. . . hmmm. . . . I glanced in the rear view mirror to see if I’d hit or run over something. . . nothing that I could see. . .  hmmmm. . . . ?!

Noise being duly noted, I continued on to Walmart.   The 12-mile trip was uneventful until I turned into the Walmart parking lot.  Then. . . grind, click, click, grind.   I pulled over immediately and reached for my cell phone, calling my husband, Tom.   He was in the midst of his own problems trying to repair our ill-tempered toilet.   I explained the situation, he suggested calling our mechanic - Fred.   Good idea!

Fred is the very best mechanic I’ve ever known and here are just a few reasons why.  Fred is a mechanic who can be trusted to do a great job at a fair price and nothing extra, never finding oodles of other auto ills while your car is on the lift.  Not only that, Fred is personable, somewhat political with views that are interesting while being sprinkled with a bit of humor plus he knows all the local goings on.   He’s a practical sort who knows auto expenses are a forced spending event and not a joy-filled shopping experience.

I did phone Fred and explained the situation.  He felt it best to send his brother over with the flatbed to pick up my Jeep Liberty and bring it back to his shop.  After Fred’s brother picked up my car I went on to pick up the groceries and such we’d be needing.  It was decided that Tom would come to pick me up once I was done.   A change in plans was underway.

I decided to push my auto trouble to the back of my mind for now and deal with it all later.   After all, Michael, Kathy and Grace were coming and in my life that event is priority.   What’s more I would not allow this “car thing” to rob me of the joy spending time with my family always brings.

Once home, the cleaning, cooking and anticipation commenced.  The menu was set for both days - Ma’s Spaghetti & Meatballs on Thursday and Shredded Barbecue Beef on Friday.  Desserts were kept simple after my sister proclaimed that buying desserts in lieu of baking is okay!  Keeping the cooking to simple, one-pot dishes and letting someone else do the baking was key - good food with a minimum of last minute prep, leaving our precious time for family fun.

When the “kids” arrived at around 2ish on Thursday they were a sight for sore eyes.  Grace has changed so much in the couple of months since I saw her last.  At almost 10 months, she’s already crawling, pulling herself to standing and making great attempts at her first steps.   I, of course, would provide constant coaching on how to say, “I love you Grandma,” but so far her repertoire includes DaDa, good girl, an occasional Mama and new addition Nana (for my mother, her Great Nana, G-Nana for short).

I’d forgotten how much stuff a little person requires.  Playpen, puffs, monitor, videos, wipes, diapers, teething rings, toys, little spoons, little bowls, bottles, favorite blankets, binky, baby food, teddy bear, plus bags and bags of things brought “just in case.”   As they settled into the upstairs bedroom their presence filled the house with liveliness, love and joy.

Penny instantly became Gracie’s most popular “toy” and the “where’s Penny” question would quickly prompt Grace to scan the room for her new “best friend.”  Squeals and laughter from our little Grace would inspire spontaneous smiles from all in the room.  What is it that this new soul has brought into our lives?

Grace has this power to help you forget about your troubles.   I can honestly say that while I did a little checking about the status of my car, I did not let the situation ruin my day.   I knew the time would come when it would need to be handled and decisions would need to be made, but not then, not while family gathers.

I can honestly say that there is never a good time for auto trouble, but there’s no doubt about it, car trouble can’t hold a candle to time with family and our newest family member - Grace.

I’m a Fungi

Tuesday, July 21st, 2009
Fungi Sketch #1, Watercolor

Fungi Sketch #1, Watercolor

Did ya hear the one about the mushroom who walked into a bar?  Taking a seat at the bar, he ordered a cold beer.  When the bartender responded, “We don’t serve your kind here,” the mushroom was surprised and replied, “Why, I’m a Fungi.”

Anyway, I found these mushrooms in the woods and brought them back to the studio to study and paint.  I don’t typically get the chance to paint from life, but since I’m on vacation this week with seemingly unlimited time, I gave it a go.  I was surprised at all the details I observed.   Working from photographs, as I usually do, can only provide so much information.

What cool little things.  I intend to whimsey them up a bit, but for now am happy to learn a little more about such fungis.

Thou Shalt Not Steal

Tuesday, July 21st, 2009

I went to Walmart on Sunday to pick up a few things, determined to stick to my list (I’m big on making lists).  I needed a couple of plastic storage containers for organizing during my vacation, a couple of pre-cut mats for framing family photographs and an El Cheapo tank top just for fun.  Total sale $28.48.

Keeping to my list is a real accomplishment particularly at Walmart, which is stocked to the gills with everything imaginable.   I admit to doing a bit of browsing through the CDs.  Checking out the Brooks and Dunn offerings. I love their music, but for some reason seldom purchase any (I own one of their CDs).  I looked and thought and compared to see which CD had which songs, ultimately buying nothing.

After checking out I headed to my car with feelings of great pride and accomplishment.  I’d done no impulse buying.  I’d stuck to my list!  As I loaded the car with my meager purchases, I noticed a little bottle of aspirin in the bottom of my cart.   It was mine, but with the bulk of the storage containers it was hidden and I hadn’t paid for it.  Cost $.97 cents.

Several things crossed my mind and I’m not proud to admit that one was to forget about it, toss the aspirin into my purse and go on home.  Reasoning that it’s only $.97 cents, but luckily that thought never took a foothold.  I knew almost immediately that I needed to go back and pay - no matter how small an amount it is called “stealing.”

So I brought my cart back to the store and headed for the checkout.  It crossed my mind to go directly to the checker who had processed my initial purchases, proclaim my oversight with grand apologies and get some kudos for showing just how honest I am.  All this very self serving.

In the end I headed to for the express lane, paid for the aspirin and then headed back out to my car once again.  Silently doing what is right (until now, of course, since I’m posting it on my blog).

I know that if I’d not returned and paid for the aspirin, every time I opened that bottle I would know these were stolen goods.  I guess it’s all a matter of personal integrity.  No one would have known, but I would have known and that’s the only person who really matters.   If you’re willing to compromise your integrity for $.97 cents what more are you willing to compromise and for how little?

Three Cheers for Monday!

Sunday, July 19th, 2009

It’s Sunday night and I’m really looking forward to Monday.  Why, you ask?  Well, I’ve taken this week off - vacation!  My son, Michael, his wife Kathy and my Granddaughter, Grace, will be here to visit for a couple of days at the end of the week.  I’m looking forward to seeing them all.  Grace is mobile already so it should be interesting having a little one who’s on the move tooling around the house.  I can’t wait.  Grandmotherhood is a wonderful thing!

I’ve only one task on my “to do” list this week and that is to finish the walkway.   Otherwise, I’m on my own, left to my own devices and am looking forward to a week of sleeping in - I slept till 8:30 this morning - and moving through each day at my own pace.  Sleeping so late this morning felt a bit sinful and I intend to do it again tomorrow!

I typically have a long list of things to accomplish on my days off, but this time I have a whole week and by keeping my list short it should make my vacation more relaxing and restorative.   Leaving most of the week unplanned will also allow the freedom to let each day evolve and give me time to enjoy my own natural rhythms.

Perhaps I’ll do a little painting, drawing or just putzing around.  Whatever comes to mind.   I enjoy being home and would rather spend my time off at home over some exotic beach resort.  I know, sounds crazy, but since my work schedule takes me away from home for 10 hours each day my time spent at home always feels hurried and way too short.   Weekends are typically spent rushing through home maintenance, running for provisions and then it’s Sunday and you know the rest of the story.

I did find myself falling into the TV trap, sitting and watching some meaningless drivel.  I would truly hate to waste my week off that way, so I’ll keep TV watching to a minimum.  Unless it’s some quality program, the television can be your worst time stealer.

So. . . I guess that’s the plan.  Sleep late and do as I please for one whole week!   I’ll let you know how it goes.

Just Walkin’ Away

Sunday, July 19th, 2009
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Just Walkin' Away, Pencil, Image Size 5"x7"

Many years ago during one my local “road trips” looking for the perfect subject to paint, I was lucky enough to find these guys walking right down the middle of the road.  Luckily, it was a country road and not well traveled.  I snapped a few pics and smiled, knowing this was a rare opportunity.  They still make me smile.  I hope they do the same for you.

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