Who's kidding who?

I haven’t given up there’s just been a break in the action.

As you might remember I have been struggling to lose weight on and off for quite sometime.  Truthfully, this struggle has followed me from day one.  At birth I wore a size 14 and things have only gotten worse since then.

I suppose we all have something in life that challenges us or hinders us from being all we can be.  My challenge is that of discipline and self-control.  I know that I possess some of both.  Let me give you an example or two.  Everyday I brush my teeth.  That takes discipline.  Even when I don’t feel like it I do it.  Everyday morning I make my bed, feed the cats, have one cup of coffee before going to work, which is another thing I do consistently.  All of these examples prove that I do have “it.”  “It” being self-control and discipline.

But… put a bag of Peanut M&M’s in the room and I’m fresh out of any kind of discipline.  My brother-in-law, Conrad, loves Vienna Fingers Crème Filled Sandwich Cookies.  He has one every morning with this coffee.   One… yes one cookie… not one bag.  He will indulge himself on Sunday and have…. TWO!   Two Cookies.  Not two bags!  (Glutton!)

I am trying to understand why food of all kinds – not just Peanut M&M’s and Vienna Fingers – have such a grip on me.  Why is it that the self-control that I do possess is out the window when it comes to food, any kind of food. What is it?  I just don’t know.  Food is my herion.  Food is my cigarette. Food is the thing that keeps me from fitness, good health and steals my energy.

My friend, Anne, gave me a book entitled, “A Course in Weight Loss:  21 Spiritual Lessons for Surrendering Your Weight Forever” by Marianne Williamson.  I’ve always thought that my powerlessness when it comes to food is indeed a spiritual problem.  Something is missing and food is how I choose to fill up.  The problem is food will never fill up what is missing.  Not 100 packages of Vienna Fingers.  Conrad has it right…food does not control him.

I wonder… maybe I should take the Vienna Finger Crème Filled Sandwich Cookie Challenge.   Is it possible for ME to eat ONE cookie a day…TWO on Sunday while not downing the whole package and the hiding the evidence?  Maybe… just maybe I should take the challenge!

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